This morning I almost had a mental breakdown about spending $100 on moisturizer. Then, I couldn’t download Gwyneth Paltrow’s cookbook to my iPad because I can never remember the password to my goddamn Apple ID. Biting into a dry, unsalted rice cake I realized, I did this to myself. My sink is clogged, my credit card debt is already too high, and I’m about to spend $100 on 1.7 oz of lotion? I have the power to unchoose this choice, right?
Two weeks ago I embarked on a journey to transform myself into the goopiest Gwyneth Paltrow wannabe by cooking 20 of her recipes and doing 10 goop recommended things, and I feel like I’m failing at my own made up challenge. So far I’ve made nine out of twenty recipes and I’ve done three out of ten goopy things, and I have 14 days left. If you haven’t been clued into what these 10 things are, you can watch my video all about it, here.
The cooking has definitely been enjoyable. I love to cook, and making new recipes is always fun. I’ve gotta say though, I am so sick of bone broth. We need to take a break. Also… so much chicken. I loved the Crunchy Veggie Salad with Poached Chicken, and the Chicken and Cabbage Dim Sum, but I need a break from poultry.
Here’s the thing about this challenge - the reasoning behind it was to focus on some self-care for the month of January. The holidays are such a busy crazy time, that I wanted to dedicate a month to doing things to better myself, not to stress out about buying moisturizer. The past few days I’ve spent more time stressing out about my clogged sink and less time taking care of myself. This is when I ask, What Would Goop Do?
Ok yes, maybe she would just pay her way out of her problems, but I don’t think she would let herself get in her own way. If this month is about self care, then I need to whip out the essential oils and take care of myself! Gwyneth wakes up at the crack of dawn every morning to work out and take time to herself before she wakes up her kids and takes them to school, so I am going to wake up at a reasonable hour (based on how late I work into the evenings) and do the damn thing!
It is so easy to put unnecessary pressure on ourselves. Knowing your limit is taking care of yourself. Also, sometimes taking care of yourself is doing things you don’t want to do. You gotta get outta bed even on the mornings you don’t want to, exercise when you don’t want to, even sleep when you’d rather stay up till 2am watching The Bachelor.
As one of my 10 goopy things to do, I was trying to figure out what I could consciously uncouple from. I thought about breaking up with natural deodorant, but I’m not ready to give up that fight. So now I am checking one more thing off my list - I am consciously uncoupling from judging myself for how I complete this challenge. The whole point was to try new things and have fun, so I’m going to do just that.
I am going to finish this challenge that I made up for myself to do in my own way. I know how that sounds. I created the rules, and I can change them. 86 the moisturizer, and lets get cookin’.