This is how I've been GOOPing

This morning I almost had a mental breakdown about spending $100 on moisturizer. Then, I couldn’t download Gwyneth Paltrow’s cookbook to my iPad because I can never remember the password to my goddamn Apple ID. Biting into a dry, unsalted rice cake I realized, I did this to myself. My sink is clogged, my credit card debt is already too high, and I’m about to spend $100 on 1.7 oz of lotion? I have the power to unchoose this choice, right?

Two weeks ago I embarked on a journey to transform myself into the goopiest Gwyneth Paltrow wannabe by cooking 20 of her recipes and doing 10 goop recommended things, and I feel like I’m failing at my own made up challenge. So far I’ve made nine out of twenty recipes and I’ve done three out of ten goopy things, and I have 14 days left. If you haven’t been clued into what these 10 things are, you can watch my video all about it, here.

The cooking has definitely been enjoyable. I love to cook, and making new recipes is always fun. I’ve gotta say though, I am so sick of bone broth. We need to take a break. Also… so much chicken. I loved the Crunchy Veggie Salad with Poached Chicken, and the Chicken and Cabbage Dim Sum, but I need a break from poultry. 

Chicken & Cabbage Dim Sum

Chicken & Cabbage Dim Sum

Crunchy Veggie Salad

Crunchy Veggie Salad

Here’s the thing about this challenge - the reasoning behind it was to focus on some self-care for the month of January. The holidays are such a busy crazy time, that I wanted to dedicate a month to doing things to better myself, not to stress out about buying moisturizer. The past few days I’ve spent more time stressing out about my clogged sink and less time taking care of myself. This is when I ask, What Would Goop Do?

Ok yes, maybe she would just pay her way out of her problems, but I don’t think she would let herself get in her own way. If this month is about self care, then I need to whip out the essential oils and take care of myself! Gwyneth wakes up at the crack of dawn every morning to work out and take time to herself before she wakes up her kids and takes them to school, so I am going to wake up at a reasonable hour (based on how late I work into the evenings) and do the damn thing!

It is so easy to put unnecessary pressure on ourselves. Knowing your limit is taking care of yourself. Also, sometimes taking care of yourself is doing things you don’t want to do. You gotta get outta bed even on the mornings you don’t want to, exercise when you don’t want to, even sleep when you’d rather stay up till 2am watching The Bachelor.

 As one of my 10 goopy things to do, I was trying to figure out what I could consciously uncouple from. I thought about breaking up with natural deodorant, but I’m not ready to give up that fight. So now I am checking one more thing off my list - I am consciously uncoupling from judging myself for how I complete this challenge. The whole point was to try new things and have fun, so I’m going to do just that. 

I am going to finish this challenge that I made up for myself to do in my own way. I know how that sounds. I created the rules, and I can change them. 86 the moisturizer, and lets get cookin’.

The Best Time to Start is NOW

Lets get this out of the way: I've been sucking at the blog thing. I feel like I say this a lot. I feel like I don't want to say it anymore. I hate when people say sorry over and over again. It's like yeah, we get it, either get over it or don't do it...right? 

The best time to start a new habit is now. That's what Gretchen Rubin's podcast said this week, and she's right about everything. All hail the habits guru. The second you start saying you are going to start doing something tomorrow, the further and further it gets pushed back. So, as of today I am going to blog every day. They may not be beautifully crafted or edited, but let's be honest - I had typos in most my blogs anyway. 

So now that we've gotten that out of the way, lets get on to the struggles and solutions of the one and only e strugs. 

Ok - this is what I've realized about myself and this Happiness Project that I've undertaken. I can't divide my life up in monthly increments. It's hard enough with all the other stuff I have to do monthly like pay rent and wait for my Birchbox to come in the mail. I feel like I should just be working on all the things I want to work on one at a time and take on a new endeavor once I'm ready....yeah? 

Right now the newest project I've undertaken is the Whole 30. In the past twelve days I have not consumed sugar, grains, legumes, soy, dairy or alcohol. I did have a dream I ate sugar, but I checked the rules and dream sugar does not count. ;)

I know this sounds cray cray. I am also pretty anti-dieting, which is cray cray-er. But I am not treating this like a diet, I am using it as a tool to help me create better eating habits. 

Aside from the fact that I caught a not so attractive view of my butt in the mirror at H&M a few weeks ago (those mirrors are HORRIBLE), I am undertaking this for the health benefits. First off, I believe that food is medicine, and I love documentaries about food. Fed Up, Food Inc, King Corn... I've seen 'em all. I love healthy food, and I always have. But I've had a hard time practicing what I preach for one reason: convenience. 

The main reason most people don't have good habits is because they are inconvenient. People like fast food because it's quick and cheap and people don't like eating at home because it is time consuming and takes effort and planning. People are less likely to exercise if their gym is far away... the list goes on and on. Habit research is pretty unanimous about this. If you make a bad habits inconvenient for yourself and good habits more convenient you are much more likely to succeed. 

So this is my way of challenging myself to eat healthier foods, cook for myself, and stop ordering Seamless once and for all. I think Whole 30 works for me because If I just was just "trying to cook more", I promise you I wouldn't do it. Being the obliger that I am, I need accountability and a kick in the butt. 

And full disclaimer - I don't think any foods are "bad". I think it's perfectly okay to have a cookie, drink a beer, and I am not afraid of gluten. The Whole 30 is an elimination diet - after you've eat a diet of non inflammatory foods you introduce these things back in slowly and monitor your reaction to them. My goal is to have more awareness about how my body reacts to certain foods so that it'll help me figure out when it's worth it to indulge, etc. 

I'll be posting more about my experience with Whole 30 as I continue on my journey to form new habits. And I'll assure you the struggles will continue, and they will be REAL. 

^ just in case it wasn't clear